I swore that yesterday would be the start of the new blogish stuff that I’m going to be doing on here… and it was Music Monday! Um… yeah, not so much. I got a bit (a lot) terrified to express why and how I like the music I do and to put so much stress on music because it’s one of my lifelines…
I actually have partial songs written all over my notebooks… things I want to say through lyrics rather than dialogue. I’m not saying any of it is good, but I still do it. I have an actual notebook with all these music ideas in it. Lines of songs, ideas, concepts, beats, etc. I have little parts of songs recorded on my iPad. But the fool is me. Even if I can write songs, who would want to see ME actually singing them? Just appearance. And unfamiliarity. But what I do is so personal I could never give it off to someone else. So I sit alone frantically pouring over ideas that will never come true.
I’m not going to play all of this as a pity party, though. I know I can sing. I know what I can sing. I know my vocal range. And every little thing I write I would be able to sing… well. And it’s funny, kinda, but the only other person that I would consider handing my songs over to sing is amazing at singing and would actually get what I am trying to say. And get it right.
Needless to say, I’m gonna try again next Monday to delve into music that makes me feel a certain way. And why it does. And you’ll get treated to a little music video, even if it is just lyrics.