I Hope You Never Understand

A lot of us with mental illness often say things like “you need to take a walk in my shoes” or “you don’t know what it’s like.”  You know what?  I honestly hope you never understand.

I wouldn’t wish having a mental illness on anyone.  It’s frustrating and terrifying.  Sometimes your world doesn’t seem real.  Sometimes just getting out of bed is impossible.  If you’re like me, you question everything you hear because you don’t know if it’s real or not.

Medication side effects are horrific.  I once gained 70 lbs in 3 months on one.  One of them put me in the hospital for almost 2 weeks, of which I remember nothing, and when I came home, I was numb from the waist down.  One of them landed me in the ER, having a reaction that looked like I was having a seizure (as I was told).

So no, I really hope you never understand.  Yes, there is stigma that is out there, but I would never want to abolish it by putting anyone through what we go through.

About I.V.

37 year old woman with Schizoaffective, Bipolar 1 type. I'm also intelligent, mostly positive, fandom junkie. Oh, and I have two cats: Zim and Gir... they're 12. So... fandom junkie? Ah, yes. Supernatural, Merlin, Buffy tvs, Angel the series, LOTR, Harry Potter, old x-files. I also like anime and and Manga. farvorite anime? Vampire Knight... and it cannot be dubbed! I also like plenty of others, I think of Elfin Leid when I say that... oh, and Blood+. Favorite Manga? Junjou Romantica, Vampire Knight, Loveless, Gravitation. I like the anime for these as well if they have it. Books: Dune, HP, LOTR, The Hunger Games, Wicked, the Southern Vampire Series, Snow Crash, American Gods, Pride and Prejudice, comics. Movies: The Boondock Saints, LOTR, HP series, Girl Interupted, SLC Punk, Walk Hard: the Dewie Cox Story, House of 1000 Corpses, The Devil's Rejects, Foxfire, Empire Records, Star Wars (only episodes 4-6), Iron Man (both of them), Thor (1&2), The Avengers Video Games: Dragon Age 1,2 and Inquisition, Kingdoms of Amalur, Little Big Planet, Star Ocean. I also love watching other people play Mass Effect, Dead Space and all the above mentioned games Oh, and I love Sushi :)
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