Living with Self-doubt

If you weren’t living under a rock or have been staying in the jungle with your animal brothers and sisters, you’ve heard that term.  A lot of people experience it at least once in their life, but some live with it as a part of their everyday lives.  Sometimes it’s a little annoyance, and other times it affects someone so much they are constantly questioning themselves and everything they do/say/think.

If you live with the later, it really gets in the way.

Make a post on Facebook (or other SM)? … should I have said that?  What if I was wrong?  How am I going to reply to something someone else says?  Did I insult anyone?  Did I jump to any conclusion too fast?

Talking right in front of someone?  Oh… will I know how to respond?  What do they think of what I just said?  Am I going to scare them away?  What do they think of me in general?

Buy some clothes?  Did they really fit me ok?  What will others think of them?  What if I can’t fit into them anymore?

Clearly, it’s life with questions about EVERYTHING.  They don’t feel comfortable with anything they do/say/write/think… and it effects life a lot.  It’s also associated with HSP (Highly Sensitive People), although that’s not the case for everyone.

I, myself, have dealt with self-doubt practically my whole life.  I know a nice handful of other people who deal with it too, and most of them have a “reason” for it… like things that happened when they were younger, etc.  I had something happen to me when I was 4, but I really don’t think about it, and the self-doubt started when I went to middle school.  I had a wonderful family life growing up, and everyone encouraged me.  Perhaps because the good things I did got recognized and it reassured me.

Whatever the reason, it’s horrible.  But I’m progressing… slowly.

About I.V.

38 year old woman with Schizoaffective, Bipolar type. I'm also intelligent, mostly positive, fandom junkie. Oh, and I have two cats: Zim and Gir... they're 13. So... fandom junkie? Ah, yes. Supernatural, Merlin, Buffy tvs, Angel the series, LOTR, Harry Potter, old x-files. I also like anime and and Manga. farvorite anime? Vampire Knight... and it cannot be dubbed! I also like plenty of others, I think of Elfin Leid when I say that... oh, and Blood+. Favorite Manga? Junjou Romantica, Vampire Knight, Loveless, Gravitation. I like the anime for these as well if they have it. Books: Dune, Good Omens, HP, LOTR, The Hunger Games, Wicked, the Southern Vampire Series, Snow Crash, American Gods, Pride and Prejudice, comics. Movies: The Boondock Saints, LOTR, HP series, Girl Interupted, SLC Punk, Walk Hard: the Dewie Cox Story, House of 1000 Corpses, The Devil's Rejects, Foxfire, Empire Records, Star Wars (only episodes 4-6), Iron Man (both of them), Thor (1&2), The Avengers Video Games: Dragon Age 1,2 and Inquisition, Kingdoms of Amalur, Little Big Planet, Star Ocean. I also love watching other people play Mass Effect, Dead Space and all the above mentioned games Oh, and I love Sushi :)
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