Living with Self-doubt

If you weren’t living under a rock or have been staying in the jungle with your animal brothers and sisters, you’ve heard that term.  A lot of people experience it at least once in their life, but some live with it as a part of their everyday lives.  Sometimes it’s a little annoyance, and other times it affects someone so much they are constantly questioning themselves and everything they do/say/think.

If you live with the later, it really gets in the way.

Make a post on Facebook (or other SM)? … should I have said that?  What if I was wrong?  How am I going to reply to something someone else says?  Did I insult anyone?  Did I jump to any conclusion too fast?

Talking right in front of someone?  Oh… will I know how to respond?  What do they think of what I just said?  Am I going to scare them away?  What do they think of me in general?

Buy some clothes?  Did they really fit me ok?  What will others think of them?  What if I can’t fit into them anymore?

Clearly, it’s life with questions about EVERYTHING.  They don’t feel comfortable with anything they do/say/write/think… and it effects life a lot.  It’s also associated with HSP (Highly Sensitive People), although that’s not the case for everyone.

I, myself, have dealt with self-doubt practically my whole life.  I know a nice handful of other people who deal with it too, and most of them have a “reason” for it… like things that happened when they were younger, etc.  I had something happen to me when I was 4, but I really don’t think about it, and the self-doubt started when I went to middle school.  I had a wonderful family life growing up, and everyone encouraged me.  Perhaps because the good things I did got recognized and it reassured me.

Whatever the reason, it’s horrible.  But I’m progressing… slowly.

About I.V.

37 year old woman with Schizoaffective, Bipolar 1 type. I'm also intelligent, mostly positive, fandom junkie. Oh, and I have two cats: Zim and Gir... they're 12. So... fandom junkie? Ah, yes. Supernatural, Merlin, Buffy tvs, Angel the series, LOTR, Harry Potter, old x-files. I also like anime and and Manga. farvorite anime? Vampire Knight... and it cannot be dubbed! I also like plenty of others, I think of Elfin Leid when I say that... oh, and Blood+. Favorite Manga? Junjou Romantica, Vampire Knight, Loveless, Gravitation. I like the anime for these as well if they have it. Books: Dune, HP, LOTR, The Hunger Games, Wicked, the Southern Vampire Series, Snow Crash, American Gods, Pride and Prejudice, comics. Movies: The Boondock Saints, LOTR, HP series, Girl Interupted, SLC Punk, Walk Hard: the Dewie Cox Story, House of 1000 Corpses, The Devil's Rejects, Foxfire, Empire Records, Star Wars (only episodes 4-6), Iron Man (both of them), Thor (1&2), The Avengers Video Games: Dragon Age 1,2 and Inquisition, Kingdoms of Amalur, Little Big Planet, Star Ocean. I also love watching other people play Mass Effect, Dead Space and all the above mentioned games Oh, and I love Sushi :)
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