Medication vs Faith

Throughout most of my life I have believed that science was behind everything.  Any mental problems I had was due to something being wrong in my brain… just like any other illness. 

Eight years ago I joined my church.  However, I had to leave after a few months because I was moving, and kept moving.  Mental Health wise, it was tragic.  So many things were going on, and my self-esteem plummeted.

I moved back into the area where my church is.  I started a job a month after I moved, but I had to work every other weekend.  So I went to church every other week.  By September, however, I mentally caved, and had a trip to the mental ward of the hospital.  By December, I had quit my job with no other job lined up.

I’m not going to get into 5 years of things happening, but in the fall of last year, I started going to church every weekend again.  I still held onto the belief that medication was the only thing keeping my head above water.  And I was struggling.

At one point, however, there came a time of complete trust in faith and God while I started a new medication.  Both of these at the same time.  So when I thought about it, I didn’t know what happened.  Was it medication or faith?

Everyone had different opinions about it, and weren’t afraid to share them.  I’ve been thinking myself too.  I think it was both.

Prayer was for my doctors, so that they would find the answer and I’d put on the right medication.  It was to make sure I was going in the right direction, and that I would get appropriate help.  And that, I believe, worked.  I finally got a combination of meds that made me feel almost normal again.  I still had some symptoms, but I was so much better.

So, I think that if you believe, you ask for things that help you physically.  If not, you go through medications until you might find the right one.  One of them takes a lot longer than the other.  But either way, be your own cheerleader.  You will get through this.

About I.V.

38 year old woman with Schizoaffective, Bipolar type. I'm also intelligent, mostly positive, fandom junkie. Oh, and I have two cats: Zim and Gir... they're 13. So... fandom junkie? Ah, yes. Supernatural, Merlin, Buffy tvs, Angel the series, LOTR, Harry Potter, old x-files. I also like anime and and Manga. farvorite anime? Vampire Knight... and it cannot be dubbed! I also like plenty of others, I think of Elfin Leid when I say that... oh, and Blood+. Favorite Manga? Junjou Romantica, Vampire Knight, Loveless, Gravitation. I like the anime for these as well if they have it. Books: Dune, Good Omens, HP, LOTR, The Hunger Games, Wicked, the Southern Vampire Series, Snow Crash, American Gods, Pride and Prejudice, comics. Movies: The Boondock Saints, LOTR, HP series, Girl Interupted, SLC Punk, Walk Hard: the Dewie Cox Story, House of 1000 Corpses, The Devil's Rejects, Foxfire, Empire Records, Star Wars (only episodes 4-6), Iron Man (both of them), Thor (1&2), The Avengers Video Games: Dragon Age 1,2 and Inquisition, Kingdoms of Amalur, Little Big Planet, Star Ocean. I also love watching other people play Mass Effect, Dead Space and all the above mentioned games Oh, and I love Sushi :)
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