Medication vs Faith

Throughout most of my life I have believed that science was behind everything.  Any mental problems I had was due to something being wrong in my brain… just like any other illness. 

Eight years ago I joined my church.  However, I had to leave after a few months because I was moving, and kept moving.  Mental Health wise, it was tragic.  So many things were going on, and my self-esteem plummeted.

I moved back into the area where my church is.  I started a job a month after I moved, but I had to work every other weekend.  So I went to church every other week.  By September, however, I mentally caved, and had a trip to the mental ward of the hospital.  By December, I had quit my job with no other job lined up.

I’m not going to get into 5 years of things happening, but in the fall of last year, I started going to church every weekend again.  I still held onto the belief that medication was the only thing keeping my head above water.  And I was struggling.

At one point, however, there came a time of complete trust in faith and God while I started a new medication.  Both of these at the same time.  So when I thought about it, I didn’t know what happened.  Was it medication or faith?

Everyone had different opinions about it, and weren’t afraid to share them.  I’ve been thinking myself too.  I think it was both.

Prayer was for my doctors, so that they would find the answer and I’d put on the right medication.  It was to make sure I was going in the right direction, and that I would get appropriate help.  And that, I believe, worked.  I finally got a combination of meds that made me feel almost normal again.  I still had some symptoms, but I was so much better.

So, I think that if you believe, you ask for things that help you physically.  If not, you go through medications until you might find the right one.  One of them takes a lot longer than the other.  But either way, be your own cheerleader.  You will get through this.

About I.V.

37 year old woman with Schizoaffective, Bipolar 1 type. I'm also intelligent, mostly positive, fandom junkie. Oh, and I have two cats: Zim and Gir... they're 12. So... fandom junkie? Ah, yes. Supernatural, Merlin, Buffy tvs, Angel the series, LOTR, Harry Potter, old x-files. I also like anime and and Manga. farvorite anime? Vampire Knight... and it cannot be dubbed! I also like plenty of others, I think of Elfin Leid when I say that... oh, and Blood+. Favorite Manga? Junjou Romantica, Vampire Knight, Loveless, Gravitation. I like the anime for these as well if they have it. Books: Dune, HP, LOTR, The Hunger Games, Wicked, the Southern Vampire Series, Snow Crash, American Gods, Pride and Prejudice, comics. Movies: The Boondock Saints, LOTR, HP series, Girl Interupted, SLC Punk, Walk Hard: the Dewie Cox Story, House of 1000 Corpses, The Devil's Rejects, Foxfire, Empire Records, Star Wars (only episodes 4-6), Iron Man (both of them), Thor (1&2), The Avengers Video Games: Dragon Age 1,2 and Inquisition, Kingdoms of Amalur, Little Big Planet, Star Ocean. I also love watching other people play Mass Effect, Dead Space and all the above mentioned games Oh, and I love Sushi :)
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