So, I’ve been thinking for a couple of years now about writing an autobiography dealing with my mental illness. The seed was put into my head by one of my psychiatrists in 2012, since I remember vividly so much that has happened to me over the years. The only problem is… how do I start? Do I go chronologically? Do I only highlight the weird? What should I do? And not only that, but I’m a loser when it comes to active vs. passive voice.
So I ask my writer friends on here about where to start. Outline? Prologue of one of my incidents? Ahhh! It’s so frustrating to get started! But I think once I know where and what I want the process won’t take too long to do (well, barring my concentration and how long my nails are at the time lol) since I’m writing about ME and talking about MY life instead of making up characters.
I just don’t want it to be boring either. All the other autobiographies I’ve read about Bipolar Disorder or Major Depression have all these hospital stays and glaring, in your face, scary stuff. I think I’m a little more boring, seeing as I didn’t go into a mental ward until I was 31 (and this all started when I was 14) thanks to my dad from keeping me out of one. I did have breakdowns. I did have casual sex for a good part of my adult life. I did have horrible medication effects. I did finally crack when I was 31 and had to go to the mental ward of a hospital. I did attempt suicide. I mutilated myself. But it all seems so blase compared to these other books. Not that I would want to live in their world, but that I don’t know if I can write what I felt when things happened, how scared I was… or how overly happy I was.
Regardless, I’m going to attempt to write something like that… I just need advice from people who have been writing awhile to my actual author friends. And I need to learn how to write without parenthesis or ellipses. Definitely hard for me.
Anyway, I’m going to go and see if I can go back to sleep anytime soon since I’m up again in the middle of the night. Thanks in advance, lovely people. 🙂